Day 3 was a Friday so that was kinda a chilling time.. doing nothing but staying home all day long; calling some old friends just to check up on them..
nothing remarkable happened but at sunset time me and my family decided to have dinner out; so we packed our food and went to the club;
weather was good and you can feel calmness in the atmosphere…
the i left early cause i had some stuff to do back at home; just before i start doing the work i had to make one fone call to a friend who was traveling abroad and had to say goodbye;
mentioning one reason why to be happy that day; it was her voice
she has this spirit that can turn your mood to be smiling and happy all day long even if you are saying goodbye
Here we come to Day 4
that was really one good day :))
Came early to work; listening music.. still listening to the new playlist;
finishing work while arranging to have dinner out with my friends;
it has been long time since we met; but it never felt as if distance affected our relationship„ as if we were together each and every moment;
this is great source of happiness; its a blessing to know that you have that kind of people in your life;
a support system; someone who will be there for you no matter what happened..
someone who will have your back always and will make you smile cause they know you very well and they know how to take you out of any bad mood you can be in..
that’s a blessing, having the ability to laugh and forget all about your worries; you can speak your thoughts out loud without worrying how they’ll get because they you know even better than yourself..
Mentioning one thing that I still don’t get whether I should be Happy or not
I should take it as compliment or not..
someone from the past decided to pop up in my life again even after we stopped talking for quite a while;
and he is talking as if we were together yesterday; !!
I felt exactly the same as a quote i have read before; that meant
sometimes you’ll need something/someone you won’t get it; after quite sometime you change because you move on and get stronger cause you overcame the fact that you won’t get it; you don’t have any chance ..
then after you changed and you no more need that thing or that person in your life; they come back and but you have already changed because of what they did to you..
you were hurt and that’s enough..
yesterday while we were talking for instance i got that feeling of ” I don’t wanna do this anymore “
if this conversation was two months ago i could have been overwhelmed; but no nothing; it just grabbed more thoughts to my head of why the hell are you back ?! what do you want now ?!
is it just that you have nothing to do now in your life so am only an option and you decided to come around and have fun again..
or i wasn’t that option from the beginning and you were just waiting for what you consider ” the right moment ” ?
still have no idea but all what i know is I have changed; and I am not so sure if i want this anymore..